jessy

Hi buddies…i had been busy trying to study and of course get my license tat i’ve not been able to blog often…sorry guys but i’m back and it feels gr8 to see u guys…i’m gonna be here for u buddies!So lets work on losing weight buddies!Actually i have not been losing any weight but i’m happy tat at least i have not gained back the weight tat i lost!So wish me loads of luck ppl!And i just got a belly dancing workout cd!I know y do i have to learn belly dancing wen my belly dances everytime i even walk rite?ok bad joke….anyways tried it last night…its not as easy as it seems though!and its fun!I guess its gd for variety!ok guys now i’m gonna read ur blogs….hope u all have a fantastic day!!!!!!!!

Hi ppl…First i would like to apologise tat i’ve not been blogging cos of a very stupid reason…everyday i come to this site and read ur blogs and feel happy for the progress all of u r making but i was feeling kinda low cos like i said in my earlier blog nothing good seems to be happening in my life except finding this site with all u wonderful ppl and didn’t want to blog anything negative…but today i went for my driving license test and actually passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!this is one good thing which is happening in a very long time and feel so thankful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I really thought God had sorta forgotton abt me but i guess he hasn’t….i think this is the beginning of a gd and happy life……Wish me luck ppl….Well there r no changes in my weight though i try to exercise at leat 30min every day but i guess i have to increase the pace…i was actually feeling very tired with all my classes and studying but i know i feel a new energy and i hope it will help propel me further!!!!!!!!And to all my buddies especially ANGELA,LORI,ELLEN,MOLLY,SHARKY and TASHA…..Thank u  guys and i really love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HI every1…i haven’t been here as often as i would have liked cos i’ve been a little busy….they have opened the swimming pool near my home and now i have a new way for working out!i have a qusetion though do all the styles of swimming burn calories equally…cos i’m not that good in the free style and prefer the breast stroke or the frog style…And i am going to go for driving license test again….i’m gonna give it my best shot and hopefully this time i don’t screw up so pray for me buddies!!!!!!!And i have an exam coming up in 10 days as well so looks like i’m gonna be a little busy….Just like to say thank u buddies for all ur love!I weighed in yesterday…and gr8 news…the scales had moved after 2 weeks..i guess its thanks to the swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!I will try my best to log in everyday..to at least read all ur blogs so all of u r in my thoughts and my prayers….Keep going and eventually u will reach ur destination….u have to there is no other way about it!!!!Good luck buddies!!!!!!!!

Ok actually the heading refers to 2 different issues..first i had a festive weekend with loads of food and i tried my best to eat as less as possible…it was not as bad as usual so i guess i did ok..But it also meant tat i had to see relatives…and as i had mentioned earlier i had become sort of a social recluse and found it difficult to meet everyone…i just feel so ashamed to see them…don’t know y…actually i do know…i just lack tat self confidence bcos of the way i am….and sis-in-law…She has the same education as me but has a better job at a better place…my bro is a truly nice guy and she has him wrapped around her little finger…he practically does only wt she tells him to…she has 2 really sweet kids and a third one on the way….and to top it she is naturally thin…she just can’t put on weight..even after the kids….i know its wrong but i tend to compare myself with her…i have a pathetic job….am not married or have a proper boyfriend…in fact i’ve had 2 painful breakups all cos the guy’s mothers always seem to have a problem with me…now tat is something i really don’t understand but my mom is so sweet to her…so she has no in-laws problem…and i am perpetually unhappy…i sometimes find it so difficult to even get up in the morning…and sleeping at night is another nightmare…can someone answer me y God is so unfair as to give things so easily to some ppl and yet make others suffer for everything?I have been at a standstill the last couple of years and have only faced failure and unhappiness in all myy endeavours…be it passing exams,finding a gd job,getting married or even to get my drivers license…i have lost all self confidence and have so much of fear inside me…i have no idea how to overcome this….

Hi buddies…am not feeling tat gr8 today cos my boyfriend of 4 years and i have decided to give a break to our relationship….The problem with my relationship is tat we r 2 very different ppl….quite literally we r poles apart and yet love was the only common thing keeping us together…my quest is is love alone enough?Our differences keep us from really enjoying the beauty of being together…tat is my opinion so wt if the differences creep up sometime later screw evrytin up?Getting married to him is also a prob…cos his mum hates me….now i can hear alot of so wt?but here in the east family is really a big thing and marriage isn’t jus btw 2 ppl but btw 2 families….so we thought of breaking up and see if we r happier without each other….i know this is not a relationship forum but jus felt like sharing…..

HI buddies how r u all?i didn’t come here the last 2 days cos of some truoble with my pc and missed all of u…its amazing how in just 2 weeks u ppl have become like family to me and i actually miss not logging in….Thank u buddies!Though i have no gr8 news to report…i am continuing my 5 km daily walk…though today did it in the form of shopping…is tat counted?(abt 5hrs)festivals r coming up this weekend and there is gonna be loads of food going around i hope i can control myself and not let myself go….God help me pls!I weighed in today but did not lose any weight…..don’t know wt hapn?is tat a plateau?If it is i didn’t expect to hit it so soon!

Hi everyone its a brand new week and i pray it will be gd one for all of u….As i read thru alot of the blogs here i realise that weekends r really hard for almost everyone…it was horrendous for me as well…but i’m ok now thanks to ellen and catrina…ur words were very encouraging thank u buddies!I got myself back on track by walking 5 km today..actually i slow jogged 1 1/2 km of it…its was gr8 feeling cos wen i started exercising in september…i was out of breath with just one round(400m)and it felt like my heart and the arteries would burst…today i felt ok jogging 1.2km continuosly…i feel so good..and i have another goal now tat i should be able to jog 5 km without being out of breath..i know there is only one way to do tat…keep working out…..ok i’m gonna study awhile and then do some aerobics….Gd luck to everyone!

I don’t know wt happened to me…i weighed myself  and saw that i had gained 1 1/2 lbs and i just freaked out and felt so low and irritated with myself…i thought i can’t do this anymore and my body is not cooperating with me…i didn’t exercise at all and i ate evrytin in sight….my mum and sis baked cookies(which r very high in calories)and i told myself i will only taste one in each…but could not stop wen i started…i lost count of the number of cookies i ate….just 2 days ago i was feeling lighter and usual clothes were feeling a little loose but now i feel heavy and bulky…and the worse part of it all is tat i know the weight gain sterday is propably due to pre-menstrual syndrome..and yet the depression kicked it….God how can i screw up after 1 1/2 mths of sweating and toiling?I feel so sick of myself………………

I hardly ever go out..infact i hate going out and meeting ppl…recently on a social website i found alot of my school friends and don’t mind mailing them to keep in touch…but wen they suggest meeting up…i find hundred and one excuses…and evrytime i tell myself that i will do allthis and more wen i lose weight…but i know how wrong this is and its crappy that i don’t feel comfortable with myself and just live my life…But for that i need to build up my confidence..can anyone help on confidence boosting?

No matter how much i plan my meals ahead….i always end up eating more….esp if my fav. food is on the table…my brain just does not stop and think before its too late?And then of course i feel horrible afterwards….How do i break this evil habit?And right now am studying for an exam tat is coming up at the endof the month….and studying late at night is the best in my home…but i have a hell of a time trying to control…the sugar and carb cravings i get at night….i almost always give in…Or i get scared tat i will binge and go sleep….and there goes my studies…i have no idea wt to do…God help me pls……….